The hotel (CLICK FOR HOTEL) has a REAL gym!  Super stoked. Had to wait for the squat rack, so was a bit fatigued, but I did get under the bar.
Not sure I will get there every day (it was very busy also), but I got there today, and today is all there is, so far.  :)

Won't be getting to the gym today. Already @ the airport (7:30 AM, and at the gate...), and arrive to DFW just in time to check in and get ready for cocktails.
It's funny how addicted I have become to the gym.    It isn't even just that I notice if I don't go (after the fact), but...I actually  CRAVE it. Such a strange little anticipation feeling... I'd go so far as to say an urgency.
Anyway; @ a trade show for 4 days, so ... I brought gym stuff, but doubt I'll really get into the gym.  Let's see how it goes!

I really love this site/app.    My_Fitness_Pal_CLICKME
And today, she predicts the above.  (She does know what I eat and how I train, so she has the intel). So I will check back in, in 5 weeks. Let's see!

I went to a HighTea yesterday (for clarity, this was not a bunch of people with weed and some chamomile) for a friends Wedding Shower. I wore a suitable dress that I just got relatively recently. Which, when I got it, was pretty a pretty tight fit and very stiff fabric (smile, but don't breathe, if you know what I mean). A little lady-like number that would not look out of place at a tea party. So, I wore it. And it didn't fit. Actually, there was ALOT of room. Which is weird cause I didn't think I had lost THAT much weight in the last few months.
As it happens, it's 8# (so a bit more than I thought) in the last few months. Still not enough to have made the amount of room I had in this dress (ps; I do miss my tits, just a little bit)... so it's apparent that indeed you can change your shape without changing your weight. So while you can't believe everything you read, I guess you can believe that.

Calendar from LIFTIUM. Love this little app!
2 weeks of mostly white space owing to a back spasm...but back at it now.  Exceptionally low weight, but hopefully can get to 135# squat in a week and then fight for the next 20# back.
It's hard to lose traction as I fall SO far back.  :(
But I gave a lot of fight in me ...or at least am developing it, so it's not a rush.
Perhaps compassion, to myself, is just another version of restraint to learn.

KH is making me think.  And like web-surfing, it starts with a brain-ramble about a narrow topic, and eventually burgeons into something that's like "How did I get here, exactly?"
Anyway, I was thinking about targets, and limits.  I set some targets that I think are the upper limit of my potential.  But I don't really know what my limits are until I hit them.  But then how can you set a target?   I don't want to limit to short term thinking only, and don't want to set the bar low. But I don't want to set goals I will consistently miss, or are unattainable. I like small wins.
Anyway, .... it does not really matter that much (.... and yet here I am diary-ing about it), but I DO like to think.  I don't know if I like that I like to think....(brain ramble, here we come...)

I got a few training plans from J as an outcome of a recent bet....
Not as good as the real deal, but better than free-style. :)   And my quads hurt, so.... there's that....

Body weight          135#
Lean Body Mass   101#
Wilks Score           250
Push ups              set of 50

You are what you do, not what you say you'll do.

lower back .... ugh.  And I hardly did anything. Just the de-rack and PING...
boo